This weekend, I realized that I am over my ex-boyfriend.
I know. Shocking. If you know me in real life, or if you've read literally anything I've written over the last three years, you probably know that I have been obsessing over the same dude for what feels like an eternity. Was he right for me? In the sense that he was 6'2", brunette, and had a mustache — 100%. When it came to emotional availability and the fact that I want to get married and have a baby literally yesterday? Absolutely not.
Now don't get me wrong — this person is still special to me, and he has had a huge impact on my life. But for the longest time, I believed that he would hold a permanent, immovable place in my heart. But I was wrong! (And I have never been more excited to be wrong, let me tell you.)
I recently saw him for the first time in nearly six months, and at the time, I wasn't sure what to expect. Intensity? Attachment? The "oh no, here we go" feeling? But… nope.
I felt… nothing. Nothing but calm! Neutral! Platonic, even! I care about him, I wish him well, but I am no longer emotionally tethered to him. And I cannot explain to you what a big deal this is.
This is someone I have Spotify-stalked. Someone I have broken up with and gotten back together with four separate times. Someone I have gone to couples therapy with. Someone who has caused me genuine, full-body anxiety. And I suddenly found myself looking at him and thinking: oh, he's just a regular guy.
Now, will this feeling last forever? I don't know. I'm not psychic. He could get a girlfriend tomorrow and I could spiral — who's to say. But I don't think so, you guys! I think I am finally free! So I am here to tell you: if you are currently in the trenches, thinking you will never get over someone, whether it's a romantic relationship, a friendship that ended, or something else entirely — you will! It's possible! And it's probably right around the freaking corner.
And not only that, but it's the best feeling in the world. Better than an orgasm, TBH. And that's saying a lot coming from me.
Double Dog Dare You: Think about the person you swore you'd never get over and ask yourself if they're still as powerful as they used to be.
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